the thing about physical pain is that it hurts for a bit then it goes numb and goes away.

"you can trust me" she said. eyes looking past my shoulder.

it's becoming a habit. I don't think i like that but meh, i can deal. I think.

dear sense of guilt or anger or whatever. Stop fucking around with me.

that one step that i don't take because of fear.

stay. Is something i wish i had said to many people around me but never managed to.


stay.

growing up

I think by the time i'd come to realise that i had to grow up, it was already to late. When does the childhood enjoyment end? Not to mention, a childhood will exist whether enjoyable or not.

They always said i was a sensible person. Am i really? And, is this really a blessing? Being aware of the consequences, fearing the future.

So i saw you crying across the table and you said that you don't want to be lonely any more. Being myself and knowing my position, i couldn't say or do anything. But you know, you're not the only lonely person. It's okay for you to cry. I shan't though because someone has to pretend that all is well and play that naive child.